Wow – after accidentally posting this instead of hitting “save draft”, I wonder how I will live up to the hype it’s created!?! Today has become a day with lots of views on my blog – with a blank post. It’s almost comical! My mistake though, kind of fits into the idea behind this post…
For 33 years, I have been a bit of a perfectionist. Looking at my house, or my counter top in my classroom, you would never know it (or agree). But, it’s true. I also tend to be a procrastinator. Know what that means? I stress and stress to get things done at the last minute, only to expect it to be perfect. Often, when it’s not, I start over, or rehash whatever I am working on at the last minute. Heck, I edit my blog at least 4 times before I publish each post (with the exception of today).
The truth is, I’m not perfect. I just need to accept that! I am not a perfect daughter. I am not a perfect teacher. I am not a perfect role model. I am not a perfect mother. I was not a perfect wife (if I was, I wouldn’t be divorced, I would have just smiled through the crap, like June Cleaver). What else?? I am not a perfect sister. I am not a perfect aunt. I am not a perfect employee. I am not a perfect girlfriend. I am not a perfect neighbor. I am not a perfect dog owner. Ok… get my drift?
It sounds like I am being negative today, but really, just trying to define some of my many roles in life, and reiterate (mostly to myself), I AM NOT PERFECT! You know what? I am ok with that! I have decided, I am going to let go of trying to be perfect. Only one person was perfect – Jesus. I can’t compete with Him! I am simply going to do the best I can do, and be the best person I can be! That’s all anyone can do, right? There will always be critics out there. I don’t have to please everyone else. I need to do what I think is best for my kids. I will run my class how I think is going to most benefit the children in my care. I will be myself, 100%.
Letting go of being perfect does not close the doors on leaving room for improvement. I am ALWAYS open to finding room to grow, ways to make things better. I recently had my evaluation at work. Overall, pretty good, but as there should be, there were a couple areas I could grow. I welcome feedback to help me become a better person (even if I resist a little at first, I AM listening and processing it). I am also always open to new ideas of things to do in my classroom, and ways to make things run more smoothly. I read parenting books and articles to learn how to better parent my kids. I am not going to look in the mirror and expect to see that perfect body, I am going to try to just be happy with how it is. I will work on getting it the way I want it to be without complaining (though, this is going to be the hardest one)… There’s a saying, “If you aren’t willing to do anything about it, it’s not worth complaining about”.
I encourage you to let go of Perfect. Be satisfied with who you are today, and strive to make it better. Know that perfect is impossible, but better is always achievable..